Happy New Year everyone! Yes, I know, the new year started like six days ago but I just wasn’t ready. I mean, I was ready but I wasn’t ready ready. I feel like I’ve been on a hamster wheel all Christmas. Being a new mom and all sure has its perks. So, yes, Happy New Year! After semi-rotting in bed all day today with my husband on sole daddy duty; I was able to wrap up my ongoing thoughts about my life and its progress.
If you’re like me, you’re familiar with self-loathing and its game. I tend to get lost in my obsessive thoughts especially when my menstrual cycle is about to begin. My top five questions are usually:
– Am I doing enough?
– Did I make the right decisions on my way to this point?
– Am I where I’m supposed to be?
– Is God pleased with my life?
– Why am I not farther by now?
The truth is, I struggle with contentment and the unrealistic aspiration of perfection. What does perfect even look like. I’m not quite sure. However, what I do know is that a majority of the elements of life that will bring me pure joy are still unchecked. Is it impatience, a lack of faith, or both? Don’t get me wrong, I am GRATEFUL. God has brought me through the highest of highs and the lowest of lows over the past four years.
Years in Review
I have not written to you personally for quite some time but at some point over the years I lost my voice – my boldness, my vulnerability and transparency. There was so much to say but the trauma robbed me of my ability to articulate what I was experiencing. Here’s a brief rundown of what happened:
2020 – Left my home church, COVID happened, went to a new church that made the old church look like heaven
2021 – had a miscarriage, missed one of my best friend’s wedding, GOT COVID, got laid off
2022 – pregnant a year to the day of the previous pregnancy, gave birth, booked my first major speaking engagement after 2 years of silence
2023 – started my new job
2024 – completed executive certification and got promoted
Not much detail there but what a whirlwind. Though it was the craziest season of my life, I came out with a greater appreciation for God and His ability to stick closer to us than a brother. Scripture tells us He will never leave us nor forsake. Aside from our materialistic goals and visions, as we enter into the new year I want us to remember this.
“Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the LORD your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.” Then Moses summoned Joshua and said to him in the sight of all Israel, “Be strong and courageous, for you shall go with this people into the land that the LORD has sworn to their fathers to give them, and you shall put them in possession of it. It is the LORD who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.”
Deuteronomy 31:6-8
No matter what storms you will face in 2025, always keep this truth close. I promise to check-in more throughout the year and write more regularly. Until we meet again, keep God at the centre of everything you do!
Amoy is intent on fulfilling God’s will and purpose for her life. She is a celebrity publicist, a proud Jamaican, a writer, an international speaker, a media practitioner and a published author. She loves all things luxury and is on a mission to become one of the wealthiest women from her island and in the world. 40 under 40, is that you?